I'm trying God

The best way of removing negativity is to laugh and be joyous.
- David Icke (April 29, 1952-)

Ahh. Easier said than done, no?

I know I have much to be thankful for. A great family. True friends. Enough money to live a comfortable life (albeit in debt). But I need her, God.

Just when I thought everyone else around me was getting better as well, I see that You test them even more than You test me. My problems pale in comparison God, & yes I'm aware of this. But, isn't it true also that this is my biggest test? & that each of us face our problems differently and that the degree of the problems are also different? That they are subjective and relative?

So would this not be a BIG problem for me God? Or is that the whole point? To overcome this loss. To move on. To have her return to me when we are ready for each other. God Willing. Please, Will it, God. Amin.